I was trying to daydream, but my mind kept wandering. ~Steven Wright

I find myself daydreaming a lot lately and as I think about my life today and where I am, I can't complain about much. I have a lot of craziness in my life, but it's a good thing because there is always craziness inside my head and now it's just out there for everyone to see. Since I have moved there have been plenty of trials and tribulations, and on a day like today I realize why I went through those things. I met a “friend” here that I could not quite understand. I have never met a person like her before and I found myself questioning everything that I knew was right because she didn’t agree with me and most importantly with her I forget to smile. I was always trying to figure out why I was failing and forgot to smile and in the process of that I forgot about me. Now that she is not in my life anymore, I have a new respect for myself and the people in my life. I now cherish the arguments I have with my sister, the smart ass remarks we give each other and the stupidness we share when we are together. I have friends in my life that I don’t have to try for, it just is. That in itself takes away soo much frustration and stress from me. I am back to my old self of laughing at every ridiculous thing I think of or do. The ones closest to me have the ability to bring out this kind, generous, person inside that’s hard to show. Every single day is pretty crazy, I am doing freelance work for the design and going to school and working. So I've decided that sleep has to go. I'm in the middle of a couple huge projects, and thats when I decide oh add a blog to your list just to make it a lil bit fuller. But thats fine it helps me to get my feelings out. At work today we were having a meeting so when I walked into the room, I said hello to everyone and one guy told me you're always smiling, I've never met someone who always smiles. That was definetly one of the moments of the day (especially since a year ago, I had forgotten to do that) that just warms my heart. I hope that I have at least one of those every day. Well back to the drawing board, she wants to see what I have done by the morning. Looks like its gonna be a long long night...