The new year begins in a snow-storm of white vows. ~George William Curtis

Every year between Christmas and New Years I always reflect back on what the past year has brought to my life. This year was quite intense to say the least. I have lost, have won, been cheated, been rewarded, had its ups, had its downs, births, deaths, renewed friendships, broken friendships, new relationships, old relationships. A little bit of everything this past year. I also have found a renewed self. A part of me that was lost quite some time ago and just in the last few months has come back to it. I was not certain if my renewed self was only for me or was it affecting the people in my life. But just two days ago, I was sitting in the lunchroom at work and there was an issue of how much change I should receive back and I said oh whatever, I don’t really know I’ll just take whatever. Then Caitlyn looked at me and said wows, Tiff are you always this laid back? I said huh? She said if that were me I would freak out if I didn’t get it and you were just like whatever. And this to be shows me that I have allowed myself to let the little things go. There are no worth the hassle or the stress it creates. With this new found way I have it has shown me that I wasn’t an emotional person, I didn’t cry, I didn’t let things affect me, I always have a wall, but now that wall has since crumbled and I'm left here emotionally open and it scares the hell out of me. I think about all that has happened and I truly believe that everything that has happened up to this point needed to happen so at this moment I can say out loud I’m happy. As far as the next year goes I need to take care of myself on a physical level, I’ve had some issues with my back and it's because I'm not as active as I used to be so once I become more active then it should stop the back problems. I refuse to let what happened to my father happen to me. I now know what it is that I have been missing for most of my adult life; I know what works and don’t work for me. I know who I am and all these things make me who I am… I'm sorry for what I have lost but there’s probably a reason I have lost it. For one reason or another there’s a reason it's not with me now. I'm not happy about some of it, but then if it's meant to be it’ll come back to me. I won’t dwell on it anymore. This year I am focusing on me. I have formed a wall of people around me that are there to protect me but the wall that was there between me and them is gone. It's going to be a great year! I hope it is for you!!!